HOMESICK

Long time no see you guys. Sorry, I had been busy since I walked into this IPTAR. The one that I really desire of. Since I walked into the entrance of IPGKTAR, sincerely I felt empty. I do not know whether the decision that I have made is something that I wanted or being forced by someone. But, deep in my heart, I know that everything; that every decision that I have made is something that I do for my PARENT and FAMILY. Because they had been there for me since I was born into this world. It was so hard to manage myself when suddenly I went to this mysterious place. A land of mystery. I hardly believe that I am here with my own feet, without my MUM, DAD, SISTERS and BROTHERS. :'(

Mummy, I LOVE YOU ~ Daddy, I LOVE YOU ~ BROTHERS and SISTERS, I LOVE YOU. Thank you for being concern towards me (of course). I will repay your kindness to me. You all raise me until I be what I am today. The TEACHER TRAINEE. The ambition and dream that you all want me to be.


But I am still thinking about one thing. It bothers me everytime. I frequently asked myself. Am I still your PRINCESS? The little one that you all kiss and hug all the time. That why I am so spoil. Because I have been pampered too much. EXCESSIVE PAMPERED. :) Hmmmm~ how can I live alone? That is why I am very passive in this surrounding. I do not talk much like usually I do. I do not laugh out loud like I loved to burst. I do not smile and happy like I usually do. It hurts me. Sometimes, oh not sometimes but entire time I am here, I wished that time will passed quickly. And I am counting days till it FRIDAY! The night before friday was usually the happiest time and moment for me because the I can go home exactly on time (noon). Now it is tuesday and many days to go. Sigh~~ I hope time pass quickly and know my heart well.


My sister, the 3rd one, she always pay me a visit (almost everyday) but I am still crying. No matter what, it always a time to cry. Pity me! :'(

This is the one that I had mentioned above. My 3rd sisters out of 5 of them. Include me, there are 6 POWERPUFF GIRLS in my family. Big family right? But I am really happy for what I had before, today and future. I have 3 brothers and 1 one them is the youngest. Oh forgot to tell you guys, I am the second youngest in my family. Being the second last and the last daughter is the best thing to be. I got what I want. I pampered and spoil. :) I cry, I laugh, I share happiness, I am who I want to be. I really thank to Allah for what I had. The family that Allah blessed to me. The harmonious that I had with my family. Their warmth are the best ever, I bet it never be replaced by other. Father and Mother, these are your 3 HERO and 6 HEROIN. The one that share their happiness, cry with you and make new family value with you. Seriously I LOVE YOU all.


Count your blessing if you still have them in your life. Say that you are bless with in this world because many are still suffering out there without someone to share and tell a story, no one want to be your family unless your own family and your in-law family :)
I hope that I will be a better person. Better and the best. I will not compete between siblings but I will try to catch up with them and learn new things about life with them. Learn a new value of family in this world to the eternity world hereafter.